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Hello.. Haha..
Know why i laugh?
Its been 4 months since i last update...
That's kinda bad.. I actually have a lot of things to tell...
But, i'm too lazy to do so...
So,here i am today trying to update...
So, 10 January 2011...
A date dat i will always remember...
Its de day i got my results..I dun expect much...
But, i just hope it's all worth it..
Congrats to my BF as in Best Friend... She's the top student in our school...
Im so proud of her... :D
Enough bout that... What i can say about my result is okay.. except for english..
I wonder where my mistakes was..
Well,everything has happened.. Nothing can change..
So, now im continuing my learning journey at Nanyang Polytechnic.. Business Informatics...
I know nothing bout that.. But, i hope its de right decision that i have made..
Now, im not doing anything except helping my mum looking aftermy niece and nephew..
Skip all that... hehe
Now, i guess bout my own feelings..
I wonder why im so sensitive,fragile and very emotional..
Its kinda stupid... But,thats me..
I feel lonely, sad, unappreciated and i also feel as if im not part of something...
This is not good... Ive been fixing myself and i couldn't find the reason why...
Im speechless... I may be seen laughing so widely and look as though i never encounter any hardships in life...
But, u're wrong.. Im suffering.. And there's no cure to it..
Im suffering a skin disease.. there's no end to it..
Day to day, I depend on medicines,creams,and injections...
I resigned and pray that one day there's a cure to it..
Despite the ilness, i live 'happily' like other people do...
I find that i don't really like going around telling peple...
But, im the type that keep things to myself.. yeah, thats me...
Hmm... Feelings.. Dun let it control too much...
Next, i think shud be the last for now..
Its him again...
I shudn't be talking about him again...
But, its something that im so used to..
Whats all this all about between us...
I don't know how it happened..
But, its kinda weird.. whenever we pass by each other...
We're strangers.. Should it be that way...
Why do i take your words for real..
Oh god.. I cant take this...
Stupid of me to still cry when its not worth it..
He once told me that, he want me to be part of his LIFE..
So, is this it? Being strangers?
I know you won't remember such small things..
But I do.. I take things seriously..
For now, I will wait for your smsSES..
Im not gonna start a conversation with you...
Unless you start it first..
Hear Me????!!!
Im for real this time..
I know u've a lot of Friends out there..
That you dun care a damn about me... Right?
I deserve it.. for being a fool.. urgh..
To keep me moving on... Im into my 'dream world'...
Thats crazy.. I cant explain this.. Its too complicated...
Continue again soon.. I hope so..
Im turning in for now..
Its 3 am here...
Bye... with lots of love...