New Me

Hello...
A New Me.. When it started?
It's after the day that i got my "result"... I sense that I've started to change..
But, I guess I'm not changing for better.. It's the other way round..
I'm starting to change.. I just feel that I need some of my time alone... I want to gain back my self~confidence and also be more mentally and physically prepared... I'm saddened by the situatiom I'm in now.. Why should people control my life? It's my wish if I just want to stay at home.. Cause I want to be with my family when they are still alive and also to cherish them..
And another thing I realise is that, some people are hypocrite and I hate that.. When they are happy they forget me.. And when they are in trouble they will look for me.. Is this the way a friend should treat each other? In this case, I don't care anymore.. Cause I'm used to it...
Something that people should know is that... We are different in the way we are brought up... Likewise 4 me, I have my limits.. So,please understand me...! I have rules to abide... I'm so grateful, that I was brought up in life where there are limits to freedom and to socialise with people.. Cause I know,that that is the right path...
When I feel so stressed, what I want is that... Someone take me away from such hectic life to a peaceful ones and bring me to a place far away from here.. Cause there are too many painful memories that I went through...
How I wish there's a kind soul to do that for me.. As for now, I just follow the flow and let my feet bring me where it should go...
I'm in a very low low spirit..
Will continue again,the next time...