My.Life.Story.

NEW BLOGSKIN....

2011-09-23T04:13:00.002+08:00

Kay i solove this skin because its simple...
But gonna edit it according to my taste.. hehe...
I need to adjust things here and there...
So, i thinki wont be continuing much...
I think i need y seep already...
Hopefully..
Cause my head is hurting...
what a headache...
I hope to continue this soon and tell about how great/disappointing my result is...
But really...
IM WISHING FR THE BEST... >.<
I guess thats all for this MORNING...
Bye.... *Less than three*

Hows Life...?

2011-09-23T03:53:00.002+08:00

Dis one im gonna talk about something else trying to distract my mind from thinking too much...
Kay.. So the title here is "How's life?"
What should i talk about...?
Hmm...
Lets get started...
Firstly, my Poly life...
Its a whole new experience entering the tertiary education...
I didnt expect i would be there as i thought i would pursue my ukhrawi studies..
But somehow, in my heart i wish to pursue my ukhrawi...
InsyaAllah one day... I hope im given the chance to live longer and learn more about my ukhrawi side..
Life in Poly isnt great if u dun have any friends u can get along with..
For me, i feel EXTREMELY lonely... Because my friends weren't there...
My poly friends are actually friendly.. But i dunnoe how they automatically have friends that they can get along with living me alone... Im kinda sad...
I actually not that arrogant or what.. Im just a shy person..
Talk to me and i will talk to you :))
This applies to some of them..
The another bunch are just... I CANNOT take it with their attitudes...
Use of vulgarities words... Well, thats part of life...
We just have to tolerate it.. D:
I just wish to set a good example for everyone...
But sometimes i see myself getting too OVERCONFIDENT or like TRYING TO CONTROL EVERYTHING..
I kinda should be realising that everyone deserves a chance...
And life is like a WHEEL..
SOMETIMES YOURE UP AND SOMETIMES YOURE DOWN... :D
Next, My FRIENDS...
Somehow, after being separated for a few months as we pursue different thing...
Conflict happened..
And that is soooo scary...
I dunnoe how to put it..
But i just hope that it will never happen again... :))
And now, ive been trying my best to keep in touch with them in any way i can...
But thinking about it, should i alaways be the one trying to get everyone together?
While the others arent appreciating it..?
There you go again, CONFLICTS.....
Lets move on to the next topic... Hehe

Im Freaked Out...

2011-09-23T03:44:00.002+08:00

Hi Blog...
Here i am today blogging...
Believe it or not it's 4 am in the morning..
I really cannot sleep...
It is because today is one of the important dates to me..
What's Up?
Its my result day...
I dunnoe if ive really done my best...
Moreover, this is my first time getting results from poly...
Gosh, i dunnoe what to think about...
I dunnoe whether im eager about it or im afraid things wont turn out the way it should..
I feel like crying.. I scared i disappoint my parents... :(
As going to Poly is part of my choice..
Oh God i just hope for the best..
And i hope my day later will be the best day ever..
I dun wish fir any bad things o happen :'(
Ive gone thru enuf...
Should i just go to sleep or continue blogging?
Its been a long time since i last blog..
It feels great to blog again..
I think i will continue blogging with anoter topic...
Since today is so called special day to me..
Lets make it somehow memorable..
I will never forget how i feel when getting my first result...
I hope for SUNSHINE..
And yeah, somehow i just wish he was with me giving me support.. :)
Wishful thinking of me...
Thats it for this topic.. :)

New Life

2011-07-21T23:01:00.002+08:00

Hello Blog....
Let's check again.. Hehe..
Last post was on 6 of March...
And now, it's already 21st of July.. :D
Whoa... Da lame giler tu...
Today mark's the first time i start to blog after studying in poly...
So, i've been busy all this while...
My poly life is so hectic... That makes me feel that time passes by real fast...
Soon, it's the end of my Semester 1.. Time really flies right...?
Hmm... Today i shall like just say things briefly...
As i wasw actually busy editting this blog... As originally it wasn't that presentable...
With the skills that i gain in Sem 1, i try to apply it here...
Those codes make me go mad actually... haha..
This leaves me less time to talk more here...
But i will try my best to update as frequent as i can... <3
My objective here is to update a bit of how i've been doing...
And the reason why i choose today is because...
Today is somehow like a special day...
Therefore, i am making use this day...
So that I can have sweet memories with me..
Till then, hope to update it soon...
I guess my content here is like all over the place...
Im rushing for 2 things, tomorrow got tests need to study... Then, another thing is I want to watch Down With <3......
Oh, I so love TAIWAN DRAMAS... <3
Bye....
Btw: To My BF, Happy Birthday... Take care of yourself.. It's okay if u forget about me, but remember that u are always in my mind... You may not see this, but it's something that i just want to randomly share here.... :')

2011-03-06T00:25:00.002+08:00

I'm back...
The reason is..... I need to let go of some things that none would understand.....
All I feel like doing is to cry... And hoping someone would lend me a hand from this darkness...
I think I lost lot of things.... I realised when I found out there's a hole in my bag.... When I got back home....
I dropped my confidence...trust...happiness...love....hope and many more....
Now I feel so terrible... To whom should i confide... Who should I call.... Clueless....
I hope someone would return back those things that belongs to me... It's very important....
Im no longer the way I am....
All I can think right now is.... to be stabbed by someone I love.... And make less people suffer...
Because I always cause trouble...
Nothing I do is right...No one loves me deeply... Im de stupid one.... Who cares too much about others feelings....
In the end, what do i get.....
Our surrounding change the way we think.... Its too complicated too explain...
Too many voices... That needs to be heard... I mysef is confuse...
Who to believe... Full of lies... Thats all i can say....
This is something random.... At times Im in good mood... At times im sooo emo...
Am i having some emotional problem....? Or is it I watch too much drama... That cause me to react abnormal...?
I cant talk much... its just that today seems to be a bad day for me....
Will there be anyone one day who is willing to reciprocate my love....
How I wish...
Im talking nonsense... now i dun even noe what im talking about....
nite...

New

2011-02-17T01:26:00.003+08:00

Hello.. Haha..
Know why i laugh?
Its been 4 months since i last update...
That's kinda bad.. I actually have a lot of things to tell...
But, i'm too lazy to do so...
So,here i am today trying to update...
So, 10 January 2011...
A date dat i will always remember...
Its de day i got my results..I dun expect much...
But, i just hope it's all worth it..
Congrats to my BF as in Best Friend... She's the top student in our school...
Im so proud of her... :D
Enough bout that... What i can say about my result is okay.. except for english..
I wonder where my mistakes was..
Well,everything has happened.. Nothing can change..
So, now im continuing my learning journey at Nanyang Polytechnic.. Business Informatics...
I know nothing bout that.. But, i hope its de right decision that i have made..
Now, im not doing anything except helping my mum looking aftermy niece and nephew..
Skip all that... hehe
Now, i guess bout my own feelings..
I wonder why im so sensitive,fragile and very emotional..
Its kinda stupid... But,thats me..
I feel lonely, sad, unappreciated and i also feel as if im not part of something...
This is not good... Ive been fixing myself and i couldn't find the reason why...
Im speechless... I may be seen laughing so widely and look as though i never encounter any hardships in life...
But, u're wrong.. Im suffering.. And there's no cure to it..
Im suffering a skin disease.. there's no end to it..
Day to day, I depend on medicines,creams,and injections...
I resigned and pray that one day there's a cure to it..
Despite the ilness, i live 'happily' like other people do...
I find that i don't really like going around telling peple...
But, im the type that keep things to myself.. yeah, thats me...
Hmm... Feelings.. Dun let it control too much...
Next, i think shud be the last for now..
Its him again...
I shudn't be talking about him again...
But, its something that im so used to..
Whats all this all about between us...
I don't know how it happened..
But, its kinda weird.. whenever we pass by each other...
We're strangers.. Should it be that way...
Why do i take your words for real..
Oh god.. I cant take this...
Stupid of me to still cry when its not worth it..
He once told me that, he want me to be part of his LIFE..
So, is this it? Being strangers?
I know you won't remember such small things..
But I do.. I take things seriously..
For now, I will wait for your smsSES..
Im not gonna start a conversation with you...
Unless you start it first..
Hear Me????!!!
Im for real this time..
I know u've a lot of Friends out there..
That you dun care a damn about me... Right?
I deserve it.. for being a fool.. urgh..
To keep me moving on... Im into my 'dream world'...
Thats crazy.. I cant explain this.. Its too complicated...
Continue again soon.. I hope so..
Im turning in for now..
Its 3 am here...
Bye... with lots of love...

My.Life.Story.

2010-10-16T23:27:00.002+08:00

Hello..
Once agayn...
It feels nice t update this blog again...
Though I actually shouldn't due to O-level..
But... Well, ive got no one to turn to...
To let out my anger,sadness and also my unsatisafaction...
Needs to buck up my english... so here i am..
U-G-H.... ugh....
I have to admit that I am not happy with lots of things...
And thats who I really am...
I'm not happy with my friends and also things around me...
We, as humans shouldn't just follow things blindly...
But, I wonder, why do some of my friends do so..
It's as if they have no rights to oppose...
I really2 wonder what's on their mind...
It's true and I agree that...
Many people can easily do things which are not right...-dis sentence is weird -.-
But,when it comes to do good deeds, they'll start to give tons of excuses...
I hope what i want to say here can be understood...
Im trying to improve my language...
I am stressed!!!
And that;s life i should say...
But, we need to buck up and be brave to give our opinions...
And who are they to talk bad things about us when we oppose them...
Why can't they look into the bigger picture?
I just can't take it you know...
Though such things happen...
I'm happy...
Cause I never dare to raise my voice when talking tomy mom in front of my friends...
Like my friend did...
I can't believe what I saw...
She blamed her mom andraise her voice...
Not only that, she went out when her mother was nagging at her...
That is not what we want each child to be right?
RESPECT is the most important thing...
Respect your parents.
Respect your teachers.
Respect your friends decision.
That's all that matters..
Oh my goodness.. What am i blabbering...
I've yet to finish what I want to say...
But I just can't wait to get out of here...
till then... Bye-Bye 0.o

My Life

2010-09-28T00:29:00.001+08:00

Hellooo...
I'm here to update the blog.. Yeah of course...
I'm not feelong good this few days.. I wonder why...
And whenever I wanted to update the blog, I would postpone it till today...
I guess I've been distracted with.... Hmm..
I wathched a show..
And there is this dialogue something like...
The guy will keep mum until the lady tell them that they like them(guys)..
Is that REAL truth?
I dunnoe why I kept thinking bout such unimportant stuff...
But I guess maybe because I've went thru it once..
And that's really.. I can't explain what it feels...
Back to the dialogue...
I guess the lady is so lucky if the feeling is mutual..
But what if it isn't? And you got to know that the guy likes another person...?
Ouh I can't believe that... I wonder how the lady take it...
Something is bugging me... I don't know if i sjud tell anyone..
Oh My... I felt like crying.. :')
For the sake of updating this blog.. I may tell along the way...
Know what...?
After an incident that happened on Fifth Of September Twenty-Oh-Ten..
I started to tell myself to try and stay away from guys and also relationships...
Imagine such incidents can make me go this far...
I never ever thought it would be like this... But I'm Sorrie I ended it...
No reason at all.. I want it to be that way..
To you, if you read this... Please understand me...
One thing I know is that, I won't forget you as you have become my history...
OH I really hate to cry... But that's the fact that females aren't as strong as a rock...
And after that incident, I started to tell myself...
I dun wanna fall in love.. I know that i'm not perfect.. Who am I to be a dream girl..
Watching someof the dramas make me sad... How those couples fall in love and be happy for the rest of their lives... I admit I am JEALOUS..
But, I constantly remind myself that they are conmpatible in terms of looks...
Who am I to have such love stories like they do...
Lastly, who am I to even dream of having a handsome guy right beside me, listening to all my craps, my sadness, and comfort me...
Bla bla bla...
My heart's closed from love...
I am sorry for doing this to myself.. I guess thats the only way out...
Friends??? Hmm...
I wonder if they arereally true to me?
Oh why am I so sensitive.. I dun believe this...
I get hurt easily... And I've been motivating myself to be happy...
To express my sadness, here I am...
No one here can say anything...
I can't trust anyone...
If I were to tell a person, they may.... Forget it... I guess that's ALL..
And yeah, changed a new skin.. I mean my BlogSkin.. I wanna make a change...
Good Night and Good Bye...

Im Back & Will Be Gone...

2010-09-19T00:15:00.003+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya!!!
Oh gosh it's been a long time i update this blog and its so full of dust.... *uhuk2*
Well thats kinda lame...
Let's check...
Last update was during MAY... And now it's already September... That's 5 months...
Hmm.. Ive been itching to update this blog within those months...
But updating a blog is sometime a hassle...
You can't do multi-tasking when updating this blog.. Like what I'm doing now...
My TV is on, and yet im facing the laptop specially to update it...
Well, I can't write for too long due to these reasons....
* The laptop's batt is low
* Busy with Raya
* EXAM period - It freakS me...
All I want to say right now is only 3 words....
Nope it's not I <3 U...
But I've MOVED on...
(wait2 is that 3 or 4 werds... oh well who cares as long as you know the meaning of those words is enuf aites....)
I'll continue if there's time... I can't promise A thing kay...
Bye~bye...
Btw, i'm so frustrated right now....
Bleargh... I really have TO GO OFF SOON...
Off to??? My Beloved BED + its MATTRESS...
Kay, i guess i'm talking nonsense...
What to do its 0025 hours ryte now...
okie... Bye....

New Me

2010-05-22T22:58:00.003+08:00

Hello...
A New Me.. When it started?
It's after the day that i got my "result"... I sense that I've started to change..
But, I guess I'm not changing for better.. It's the other way round..
I'm starting to change.. I just feel that I need some of my time alone... I want to gain back my self~confidence and also be more mentally and physically prepared... I'm saddened by the situatiom I'm in now.. Why should people control my life? It's my wish if I just want to stay at home.. Cause I want to be with my family when they are still alive and also to cherish them..
And another thing I realise is that, some people are hypocrite and I hate that.. When they are happy they forget me.. And when they are in trouble they will look for me.. Is this the way a friend should treat each other? In this case, I don't care anymore.. Cause I'm used to it...
Something that people should know is that... We are different in the way we are brought up... Likewise 4 me, I have my limits.. So,please understand me...! I have rules to abide... I'm so grateful, that I was brought up in life where there are limits to freedom and to socialise with people.. Cause I know,that that is the right path...
When I feel so stressed, what I want is that... Someone take me away from such hectic life to a peaceful ones and bring me to a place far away from here.. Cause there are too many painful memories that I went through...
How I wish there's a kind soul to do that for me.. As for now, I just follow the flow and let my feet bring me where it should go...
I'm in a very low low spirit..
Will continue again,the next time...

Updating!

2010-05-21T00:13:00.002+08:00

Hello! Its 12.15am now!
I'm bored.. And I can't sleep, so I'm updating my blog :) What's more tomorrow is another holiday 4 me...
I guess yesterday I've been thinking a lot of him... That made me dream of him...
Not once but twice...
I guess I miss him a lot..
About what I dream?
I don't feel like telling...
Cause,its kind of funny dream...
Well,let's just stop till there.. There are quite a lot of things I've been doing without him knowing...
What I've been doing is that.. I wrote what happen each day about him and me which I think is a memorable one 4 me...
*yawning* Feeling sleepy..I just started doing that thir year... Cause it may be our last year this year so I do everything I can and remember what actually happen..
This is the other side of me... Though I always smile in front of people, but inside me no one knows... How miserable I am...
Now,I feel sleepy... Till here then... Good Night.. Wait2 maybe i should say Good Midnight & Sweet Dreams...
Btw, I remembered "bickering" with him about this... Well it's all past... Bye~Bye

Months after months....

2010-05-19T16:42:00.002+08:00

Hello Once Again...
Apologies from me as I can't update my blog frequently like I used to...
Been so busy with school... Haiz... Let's update about my life...
My Life.. I dunnoe what to say...
I keep thinking of him in the morning,in school-canteen..... 24 hours straight..
I want to forget him!!!! It's either now or later...
Cause I can feel that he doesn't treat me like how he treat others..
Quite dissappointed... But nevermind...
Now, I'm so used to it... What I can only do...
Is to see him from far... :( Wishing him success in evrything he does...
Though I always keep condemning him.. hehe
But what inside my heart is the other way round...
Why am I so emotional???
I can't go on.. If I do.. I guess I'll be crying hard because of what happened to me...
I guess my purpose making this blog is away to express what's inside me and what I feel about him...
Till here...
To Be Continued.. Bye-Bye...

A New Year

2010-02-19T15:28:00.004+08:00

Hello Peeps,

I guess it's been already 3 months since I last upadate my Blog... So, here I am
again updating my blog n I still can't decide what to write for the first blog of
the year... Hmm... Should I start with a sad one or a happy one.... Or maybe both?? I can't seem to make any decision because I'm confused... *sigh*
So how??? Grrr... I would like to write everything that happened for those two months.. But, there's always lots of things I have to do... Can't spent too long sitting in front of a computer!!! hehe... well, I guess lets do story-telling next time.. I guess that's rite... See, I have tuition at 5 pm later... All my time is occupied!!!! Till here,see ya next time... Will be talking bout Hym.... Bye-bye...

With Love,
HeartBroken94

Hmm....

2009-11-20T12:49:00.002+08:00

Today, results out!!! hehe...
Alhamdulillah it was okay...
Be Contented with what i have...
Though I failed 2 subjects...
But i pass for overall marks...
And, i'm glad of that...
Hopefully my parents understand my situation...
That I need more time to get use to all the subjects :)
Other than my happiness... I've sadness inside me...
It's all about that ONE person...
I've been thinking bout you...
I hope you know this...
That's all.. I guess...
It wud be a long story if i were to tell...
Doing that next time..

Very Moody

2009-11-15T20:54:00.007+08:00

It seems like today my mood isn't right...
I wonder why...
Is it bcoz of a dream which i dreamt today morning...???
Argghhh... what's happening to me???
I'm not myself today...
My mood went deeply down...
I just cant describe how i feel ryte now...
There's no word that i can specify my feelings...
I'm just speechless...
And not in the mood to write..

But i want to tell another story...
It's a sad story to me..
That I almost cried...
So, do take a look at it...
http://www.lovefatedestiny.com/koreansadlovestoriesII.htm

Here Is Something About Month of April

2009-11-12T17:20:00.001+08:00

Todaaaaayyy... hehe

2009-11-11T13:39:00.008+08:00

I suddenly got addicted to this song.. "Just So You Know- Jesse McCartney"
Though this song was about 3 years ago.. I dunno why...
All this while I only HEAR that song.. But never thought of knowing who he is...
Until today... All this while I thought his age was like in the late 20's...
But in the end,I search for his vids... To know the truth...
Then,I was shocked... to see him... hehe.. here's a picture of him:

Here's Something bout him...
Name: Jesse McCartney
Birthday: 09 April 1987 (3 days after mine..hehe)
His age now: 22 years old!!!

wohoo... hehe...
He is still young but is sure a talented guy...
I'm soo into him..??? Well, i dunno... hehe

Stories... Stories...

2009-11-07T16:21:00.002+08:00

(A girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on a motorcycle)
Girl: Slow
down. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its to scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
(Girl hugs him)
Guy: Can u take my helmet off and put it on? Its bugging me.

In the paper the next day: A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on the motorcycle, but only one survived.
The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his breaks broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him, felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so she would live even though it meant he would die.

>>>>
Girl: Do you really love me?
Boy: Of course I do.
Girl: I wanna hear you say it.
Boy: I don’t have to.
Girl: Why not?
Boy: Because...
Girl: I just want to hear you say it in words.
Boy: I can’t...
The girl started to cry softly and said:
Then you don't love me...
The two continued to walk in silence. They
reached the girls home.
Girl: Why?
Boy: Do you really want to know?
Girl: (hesitantly) Yes.
He hugged her gently, kissed the tip of her nose
and whispered in her ear,
"Because three words are not enough..."

>>>>
Billy loved Katie with all his heart. But he never told a Single soul. Katie secretly loved him too. But she thought she would never have a chance with him. Billy asked his friends what they think of her and his friends thought she was gay. They didn't like her at all. So Billy just went along with them. They all made fun of her and made her feel really bad. Katie was so upset.

One day they followed her home from school making fun of her the whole way home. Once she got inside her house she dropped to the floor cringe. She had a crush on Billy since 3rd grade. She didn't know what to do. When Billy got home he felt real bad about what he had done. So he decided to go to Katie's house to tell her he was sorry and that he really loves her.

When he got there he knocked on the door no one answered.

The door was open so he walked in. He walked into the living room and found Katie lying dead on the floor. She had slit her wrists. Billy was so up set . He knew it was his fault she killed her self. And now he could never tell her how he really felt.

The lesson of this story is: Don't wait to until the last minute to tell someone how you really feel. Because it just might be too late. And don't always go by what your friends say, follow your heart.

Quotes

2009-11-07T16:08:00.003+08:00

"I'm not supposed to love you
I'm not supposed to care
I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there
I'm not supposed to wonder
Where you are or what you do
I'm sorry, I can't help myself
cause I'm in love with you!"

I guess that is how I feel now...
I tried to stop these feelings...
But its hard...
Still trying my best anyway...
Wish someone understands me...
Need someone to comfort me...
And also HYM to understand me...

Here's SleeQ

2009-11-07T16:00:00.003+08:00

Dah lame tk amek tau perkembangannyer... Releasing my stress... So, tthis is it... hehe... 2 videos...

"I wanna say THANKS coz u made my day a WHOLE LOT better...."

2009-10-30T16:57:00.004+08:00

"I wanna say THANKS coz u made my day a WHOLE LOT better...."

I dun noe why i like this sentence soo much...
CREDITS TO Zahra..hehe...
So this, is the story...

I never thought such thing would happen...
Where someone starts to mind other people's business...
Doing something which i don't like...
Y? Cause its my problem...
Let me handle it...

Problems after another...
You created even more...
*G E R A M N Y E R*
Asal sey pndi2 bt decision...
Da tau tu diam2 suda uh...
I can't stand such people sey...
Ingt nie: MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS...
Skrg tgk ape dah jadi...
Persahabatan kite org dah tak tau jad aper...
Musuh?? Tk kenal langsung??
Geram sangat2...
The only person I would blame is YOU!!!
It's ALL because of you...
Dlm bnyk kwn2ku...
Tak ade satu pun yg nk blng2 org...
Nobody ever dares do that...
Bnyk2 pon cume kene kacau jer...
Tap nie,alamak...
Up sey darah...
All my 7 years seems to end in a second...

Tyme tenga nak kat periksa lagi terjadi...
Rase2nyer mcm da 9 hari tk mxg ngn dier...
And we never wish each other 'Good Luck' like we used to...
Great! Another thing happen...
Dun feel like talking bout it now...
Argghh...
Continue again next time...
Bye peeps...

New Ones

2009-10-21T17:47:00.000+08:00

*There are times when I cant decide
try to hold onto until the end of time,
even when there is nothing left to hold.

*You learn to like someone when you find out what makes them laugh,
but you can never truly love someone until you find out what makes them cry.

*True love is when you have to watch a friend leave,
with the knowledge that you might never see him again.
But you know he'll be in your mind and heart forever...

*Love starts with a smile,
Grows with a kiss,
and ends with a tear.
whether to see you or not,
I want to see you because I miss you
but there are times when I dont want to see you
because everytime I do,
the fact that you dont see me the way
that I see you hurts me even more ...

*The weirdest thing happened the other morning...
I woke up with tears in my eyes...
and one rolling down my cheek...
and I knew I must have been dreaming of you again.

*I'm not supposed to love you,
I'm not supposed to care,
I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there,
I'm not supposed to wonder where you are and what to do,
I'm sorry I can't help myself,
I'm in love with you.

*You're not worth the tears,
you're not worth the heartache.
I don't know why I give you the time.
You're not worth the pain,
you're not worth the emptiness.
I don't know why I wish you were mine.

*I'm sorry for crying over you,
because I said I wouldn't.
But I didn't promise you that,
because I knew it would be a promise
I would never be able to keep.

*It takes a couple seconds to say Hello,
but forever to say Goodbye.

*Nothing hurts more than realising he meant
everything to you, but you meant nothing to him.

*Love is a precious gift that people
try to hold onto until the end of time,
even when there is nothing left to hold.

*You learn to like someone when you find out what makes them laugh,
but you can never truly love someone until you find out what makes them cry.

*True love is when you have to watch a friend leave,
with the knowledge that you might never see him again.
But you know he'll be in your mind and heart forever...

*Love starts with a smile,
Grows with a kiss,
and ends with a tear.

Hie...

2009-10-19T17:32:00.002+08:00

After motivating myself with those quotes... There are some which really happens to ME.. I don't know why I shud be in this state.. I'm stuck in btween.. Hopefully somebody can help me in moving on... Definitey not the HYM... I've been having a bad mood when i think about HYM... It hurts soo much... Crying over worthless person... Waste Time.. But i still can't avoid it.. Y??? I guess it's bcoz he will always appear in front of me... argghhh..... These is so heartbreaking!!! I can't take it... Well, though the quotes are the last part... But, i've found one and there's more to come... Feel better after expressing it here.. I guess that's it... Bye people...

The Last Part

2009-10-19T17:21:00.003+08:00

*Loving you was easy,
losing you was hard.
Loving you is still easy,
but knowing you are no longer mine,
is the hardest of it all.

*If you could choose between life and death
you would almost rather die,
love is fun but hurts so much
the price you pay is high.
And so I say don't fall in love,
you will get hurt before your through.
You see my friend, I ought to know,
I fell in love with you.

*I thought I'd forget you, but I guess I forgot to.

*You hurt me more than I deserve,
how can you be so cruel?
I love you more than you deserve,
why am I such a fool?

*It's amazing how you make your face just like a wall,
how you take your heart and turn it off,
how I turn my head and lose it all.

*Every few nights or so you pop into my dreams,
I just can't get rid of you like you got rid of me.

*Days continue to pass, stars continue to shine.
Why do I have tears in my eyes today
when he was NEVER mine?

*If I could be anyone at this moment,
I'd be her so you'd love me too.

*Should I smile because he's my friend,
or cry because that's all he is?

*Love that we can not have is the one that last the longest,
nhurts the deepest and feels the strongest.

*When you're near it seems that I took you for granted,
but now that distance is between us,
it made me realized that your love has been a part of my life.

*Nobody said it was easy;
it's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy...
no one ever said it would be this hard

Part 4

2009-10-18T19:11:00.003+08:00

*What if whats best for "us"
Is whats hardest to do
I still love you but,
I have to let you go

*when will it stop
the pain
that darkness
that that that
that part of me
that was or Y-O-U!
why can't you fill it
why did u leave
why why why?
love hurts
but so does life

*Why is it easy to fall in love and
yet so hard to be loved back?
why should I feel such if destiny
permits me not?
why do I have to fall if it's you I cant have?
why is there a "you" in "me"
but never a "me" in "you"?

*How can I lose something that I never had?

*It hurts the most when you
can actually feel your heart breaking.

*True love never dies as we see in our eyes,
only when we let go that we can truly say goodbye.

*She's got him falling head over heels
for her and I can't even get him to stumble..

*Love can sometimes be magic.
But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion.

*When you are in love and you get hurt, it’s like a cut...
it will heal, but there will always be a scar.

*I miss you a little, I guess you could say,
a little too much, a little too often,
and a little more each day.

*If you have love in your life it can make up for a great many things you lack.
If you don't have it, no matter what else there is, it's not enough.

*Time goes by a lot slower when you miss the one you love.

*Now join your hands,
and with your hands your hearts.

Part 3

2009-10-16T17:14:00.002+08:00

*I cried when I knew I lost you,
afraid I had lost it all.
Then I realized that losing you,
didn't have to mean I lost me.

*One day you will seek love
and be sorry that you threw mine away.

*My heart only fought for what it wanted.
Now my heart is having to fight to let him go.

*Now that I have loved so purely and deeply,
I have realized how lonely I really am.

*Some people think that it's holding
on that makes one strong;
sometimes it's letting go.

*You have to forgive to forget,
and forget, to feel again.

*Don't ever give up if you still want to try,
Don't ever wipe your tears if you still want to cry.
Don't ever settle for an answer if you still want to know.
Don't ever say you don't love him if you can't let him go.

*You said you didn't want to see me get hurt,
so does that mean you closed your eyes when I cried?

*Don't say we're not right for each other,
the way I see it, we're not meant for anyone else.

*If the truth was told instead of a lie,
then the pain would go away sooner and not hurt as much.

*It really hurts when you expected so much more
from the person you once loved so much.

*I wish I was a kid again,
because skinned knees are easier
to fix then broken hearts.

*Oftentimes we say goodbye to the
person we love without wanting to.
Though that doesn’t mean that
we've stopped loving them or we've stopped to care.
Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you.

*It's like my mind knows what's right
but my heart is being retarded and still cares

*If tears could build a stairway on memories alone,
I'd walk right up to Heaven and bring you home again.

*Ask me how many times my heart has been broken
and I will tell you to look in the sky and count the stars.

Part 2

2009-10-10T15:46:00.004+08:00

* Moving on is simple,
it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult

* I dont miss him, I miss who I thought he was

* If someone you love hurts you cry a river,
build a bridge, and get over it.

* Never be sad for what is over,
just be glad that it was once yours.

* Should I hate you because you hurt me?
Or should I love you because you made me feel special?

* Deep down you know it's best for yourself,
but you hate the thought of him being with someone else.

* Now I believe it when people say love is blind...
'cause I must have been blind to love a person like you.

* Money can't mend a broken heart;
that's Love's job.

* One can not truly experience the beauty of love
without enduring the pain
that comes with it once it is lost.

* It hurts to see the one you love happy with someone else,
but it is more painful to see the
you are with unhappy with you.

* The heart does heal and you will love like this again...
only when you do,
you will deny you ever felt like this before.

* Why am I afraid to lose you when you're not even mine...

* You will know that you love someone
when you want him/her to be happy.
Even if that means you're not a part of their happiness.

* I was born the day you kissed me,
died the day you left me,
but lived for the time that you loved me

* I will always love him,
I just won't love the way he treated me.

Something to Share (Part 1)

2009-10-02T20:44:00.007+08:00

* Don't Cry Over Someone That Won't Cry Over You

* No Guy Is Worth Your Tears & When You Find The One That Is He Won't Make You Cry

* If You Really Love Something Set It Free.
If It Comes Back It's Yours, If Not It Wasn't Meant To Be

* Some Day You'll Cry For Me Like I Cried For You,
Some Day You'll Miss Me Like I Missed You,
Some Day You'll Need Me Like I Needed You,
Some Day You'll Love Me But I Won't Love You

* Time will make you forget me but time will make me love you more than before.

* If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you I wouldn't love you.
If I didn't love you I wouldn't miss you, but I did, I do and I will.

* My heart longs for you, my soul dies for you,
my eyes cry for you, my empty arms reach out for you.

* Forget who hurt you yesterday,
But don't forget who loves you tenderly today.

* Love can make you happy but often times it hurts,
but love is only special when you give it to who its worth.

* Boyfriends come and go, but friends are forever.

* The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go,
and knowing when to say goodbye.

* No pleassure, no expressions just an illusion of what should of but wasnt.

* I hate you for not letting me have you.

* Forget the times he walked by, Forget the times he made you cry,
Forget the times he spoke your name, Remember now your not the same.
Forget the times he held your hand, Forget the sweet things if you can,
Forget the times & Don't pretend, Remember now he's just your friend.

* The day you finally decide to love me will be the day
after the day I have given up on chasing you

* I hate to see the one I love happy with somebody
but I surely hate it more to see the one I love unhappy with me...

* I had a dream and it was about you ...
I smiled and recalled the memories we had ...
then I noticed a tear fell from my eyes ... you know why?
Coz in my dream you kissed me and said goodbye ...

At last

2009-10-01T18:20:00.002+08:00

After weeks have gone... This blog seems to be having problem.... Which makes me uncomfortable... hehehehe.... well... what i can do is that... I want to tell u all that i won't be updating my blog as i usually do everyday.. The only thing i will do is to upload some videos or pictures... I guess thats all... Bye People....

Another One!!!!

2009-08-19T17:50:00.000+08:00

Lirik:
sentiasa menanti ketiabaanmu
sendiriku menagih nafas dirimu
namun kau memungkiri melangkah pergi
selama-lamanya..

wahai cinta dengarkanlah
rintihanku yang ku rasa
ku berserah tuk berpisah..

(chorus)
mampukah diriku menempuh segala untukmu
biar pun ku tersiksa menitis air mata
bawalah jiwaku agar ia di sisimu
cinta..

belahan jiwa ini tiada yang tahu
seribu janji-janji mengukir hidupku
relaku menunggumu walau bertahun
tuk kita bersama..

wahai cinta dengarkanlah
rintihanku yang ku rasa
ku berserah tuk berpisah..

(chorus)
mampukah diriku menempuh segala untukmu
biar pun ku tersiksa menitis air mata
bawalah jiwaku agar ia di sisimu
cinta..

ku berserah
cinta yang ku diberi
(sayang)
ku kan setia menanti..

(chorus)
mampukah diriku menempuh segala untukmu
biar pun ku tersiksa menitis air mata
bawalah jiwaku agar ia di sisimu
cinta..

Another Song

2009-08-19T17:45:00.002+08:00

Lirik:
Hanya Untuk Mu
Sepenuhnya Hati Ku
Segala Yang Ku Lakukan
Demi Menyayangimu

Lemah Ku Lelah Mendampingmu
Menahan Daya Ku
Menafikan Rindu
Sungguh Tak Mungkin
Ku Termampu
Lupa Kan Dirimu
Meski Pun Ku Perlu

Harus Kah
Kasih Dipersembahkan
Sedang Kan Ku Tahu
Duka Kan Bertamu

Hanya Untuk Mu
Sepenuh Hati ku
Segala Yang Ku Lakukan
Demi Menyayangimu
Ampuni Aku Kerna
Selindung Kan Cinta Ini
Sehinggakan Kau Berlalu

Ku Relakan Kau Berlalu

Song For You

2009-08-04T17:21:00.004+08:00

Lyrics:
sudah tak terkira berapa kali kita putus cinta..
mungkin kamu rasa terbiar
pandangan kita berbeza kini ku mengertinya
pada kamu cinta kita buat semudahnya..

aku rindu aku rindu dia aku rindu
sejak kali pertama kita bertemu
aku rela aku rela buat apa saja
mengulang kembali peristiwa kita

aku yang bersalah aku yang mengaku kalah
aku jatuh cinta.. cinta kita.. bagaimana
bagaimana.. aku bukan sempurna
aku yang bersalah aku yang mengaku kalah
aku jatuh cinta.. cinta kita.. bagaimana
bagaimana.. aku bukan sempurna

cara mana kau membuat aku terjatuh begitu
tidak kah selama ini ku buat apa yang kamu mahu

aku rindu aku rindu dia aku rindu
sejak kali pertama kita bertemu
aku rela aku rela buat apa saja
mengulang kembali peristiwa kita

aku bukan sempurna
aku yang bersalah aku yang mengaku kalah
aku jatuh cinta.. cinta kita.. bagaimana
bagaimana.. aku bukan sempurna

Expressing it

2009-08-04T17:11:00.001+08:00

Oh my... Didn't expect...

Today was a great day..

We laugh around...

Always have something to say...

And jokes all the way...

That's how we release our TENSIONS and STRESS...

And yeah...

In the end...

It happened... :)

awwww..

Today's Feelings

2009-08-03T17:41:00.001+08:00

Happy??? Sad??? I dunno how to express it...
I wish there's a machine that can read pepople's heart...
Or express a person's feeling....
I've had enough, people...
I wonder how long it can lasts....
Argghhh....

Missing sumbody soo much...

N have been longing to hear and see that person....

hmph...

Nothing can make me forget that person...

June Holidays

2009-06-26T16:38:00.004+08:00

Update...............

hehe...

hmmm... let me try to recap what i've been doing dis june....

As you know...
01 till 04: Went to REBUTIA :)

07: Went to Cher Zaiton's and Cer Ghazali's

wedding.....

08 till 16: Went out with my mummy,

Bayar hutang puase(tu pon lom abes),

Busy with facebook.....

17: Pergi Pasir Ris Park celebrate

Bday shireen... Had great fun...

Lagi2 bile tengok orang kene sabo... hehe

18: My granny,auntie and cuzzies dtg...

Da lame tk jumpe...

And that day jgk my coupon habes dijual....

Wee~~~

Thank you so much.....

19: Dok uma on comp.... dok dpn

comp.. anu facebook......

20: Went to tampines nyer swimming pool....

teman kan adek ngn cuzzies....

Memeriahkan lag holiday dorg...

Pas tu jalan2 kat Tampines 1....

21: Father's Day

22: Suppose to go IT...

But end up bngn lmbt psl tdo kul 4 pag...

Tapi,end up mummy ajk klr....

23: Dapat g IT....

Tak bangun lmbt... hehe

Balik arnd 4 pm....

Dpt menghabiskn projek bkin website in one day.....

24 till 25: Jln2 jgk... hehe....

26(today): Dok kat uma tolang mak bkin roti kirai....

Yummy... hehe....

I'll upload some of the pictures later.....

Apologies from me

2009-06-07T20:33:00.005+08:00

Sorry peeps...

I guess i don't have the time to post anything about

Rebutia for now...

Been busy lately...

Sebab tu lom post pape lag.....

So sorry yer....

Alhamdulillah

2009-06-07T20:22:00.003+08:00

Hari ini dalam sejarah.....

07/06/2009

Dua guru telah naik pelamin....

Congratulations to you...

Cher Zaiton and her husband, Salihin

And also,

Cher Ghazali and his wife, Farhanah....

(namer kalo sala bilang)

Tak sangker.....

Due2 naek pelamin samer date....

sume pelajar2 yg pergi, kelam kabut

kejarkan both nyer wedding...

whatever it is, ku gembira melihat mereka...

Moga kekalan hingga ke anak cucu...

One ting i wanna share...

not only me who feels it,

but yg laen jgk samer...

Sumer da feelin' nk kawen jugak....

hmmm...

But i guess kiter mase jauh lagi perjlnn nk kawen...

Berdo'a je la yer moga satu hari kita pon akan kawen...

Once again,

CONGRATULATIONS from me.....

sayang sumernyer.....

Balik from REBUTIA.......

2009-06-06T19:28:00.003+08:00

Setelah empat hari meninggalkan tanah air untuk ke kem Rebutia...

Akhirnya ku kembali lagi di sini...

Untuk berkongsi pengalaman dekat sana....

Sorry yer after due hari balek baru post...

Banyak sekali yang telah dipelajari...

So, wait for my stories kay...

But then, I'll be posting laen2 la eh...

Sebab citer panjang skali...

Myb satu hari kat saner satu post.....

TUNGGU LA YER

Lagu Die Best!!!

2009-05-30T14:58:00.001+08:00

The Result Is Out!!!

2009-05-28T19:09:00.004+08:00

Didn't expect.....

.......الحمد لله

Segala Puji BagiNYA.....

I seriously never thought that i would get below 15....

Because I know where my abilities are...

Let me tell what actuallly happened today morning....

Woke up arnd 6.45... Get ready for school...

0751hrs send my sis to school...

Then,went on to my school....

Reached around 8.40...

Not many people around, very few...

Just sat, bt then was asked to go into a classroom-2nd level..

My heart keeps beating very fast...

When I went in, saw two teachers,

Ustzh Saodah & Miss Zaiton

Both busy talking to de parents...

Then I saw Syaf,

Later, Hakim parents went in too...

After waiting for about 10-15 mins,

its my turn...

Uh-oh!!! Big trouble I say....

I sat, my teacher open up my report book...

I was like... Cher, y dun u let me sit down, relax...

Fuuh... STRESSED.....

I sat beside my mum so i can see only half of the book...

Position In Class:**/20

I was shocked!!!

My mouth was about to say:

' Cher, salah page eh?'

I looked at it the second time to check...

And yes, it was the mid year results for this year...

SOOOOOOO SHOCKED....

Never thought I did so well...

Tcher keeps saying to practice a lot for A-maths...

Im soo glad....

I must do well for my FYE..

Bye peeps..

Btw, congrats to all...

No matter what, we shud believe in ourselves that we can do it!!!!

Lupakan saja....

2009-05-26T16:40:00.004+08:00

I guess I have to forget the past and work out for my future...

Living in the past was so miserable...

I wish to be freed.... from my past

No More Fear....

No More Mistakes....

And now, I understand that people may change within 3 seconds...

I'm sad...

I just feel like i don't even know that person anymore....

He or she have never beeen like this before.....

But, *sigh* i never thought "that" person have changed...

I wish to see that "old" person agayn...

But how do i tell???

.....................................................................

..................................................

I don't have the courage to tell....

I cannot be straightforward......

I want it to be indirect.....

Guess it was part of my mistakes...

I hope u forgive me... And I want you to know that u r always in my mind.....

It seems like we have fall apart...

It can never be the same again...

But, hopefully one day, i wud see "that" person again....

who is polite and treat others respectably.....

Please......... For my sake.........

Farewell Friend

Favourite Song #3

2009-05-23T19:49:00.004+08:00

Song: Miss Independent

Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah yeah

[Verse 1]

Ooh there's somethin about just somethin about the way she's move

And I can't figure it out there's something about her.

Said ooh it's somethin about kinda woman that want you but don't need you

And I can't figure it out it's somethin about her

Cause she walk like a boss talk like a boss

Manicured nailed to set the pedicure off

She's fly effortlessly

Cause she move like a boss do what a boss

Do she got me thinkin about gettin involved

That's the kinda girl I need

[Chorus]

She got her own thing

that's why I love her

Miss Independent

Won't you come and spend a little time

She got her own thing that's why I love her

Miss Independent ooh the way you shine

Miss Independent

yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah

[Verse 2]

Ooh there's somethin about kinda woman that can do for herself

I look at her and it makes me proud

There's something about her

Somethin oh so sexy about kinda woman that don't even need my help

She said she got it she got it

No doubt, it's somethin about her

Cause she work like a boss play like a boss

Car and a crib she bouta pay em both off

And the bills are paid on time yeah

She made for a boss only a boss

Anything less she telling them to get lost

That's the girl that's on my mind

[Repeat Chorus]

[Bridge]

Her favorite thing to say

Don't worry I got it

And everything she got best believe she bought it

She gonna steal ma heart ain't no doubt about it

You're everything I need, said you're everything I need

yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah yeah

[Repeat Chorus]

Miss Independent

That's why I love her

LUAHANKU

2009-05-23T19:32:00.008+08:00

SILATURRAHIM

English:

1. It takes a long time for a person to trust another person.....

2.But it takes a night to break that trust...

Tak paham jugak???

Melayu:

1. Untuk mempercayai sesorang perlukan masa yang lama...

Sebab: Kita harus tahu kejujuran dan macam2 tentang seseorang.....

Dah lama kenal baru kita tahu dia baek atau tidak.....

2. Tetapi, dalam masa satu saat ke watever, kepercayaan itu akan

hancur secara sedar atau tidak....

Akibatnya: Dah susa nk percayakan sape2 lagi,

Ianya menjadi luka buat selamanya,

Keyakinan untuk mempercayai kurang

& macam2 lagi....

So,to those,out there, BEWARE.....

What do u feel kalau kena betray ngan kawan sendiri????

Do comment or give a reply.....

Favourite Song #2

2009-05-20T11:25:00.002+08:00

Song: Unbelievable

Always said I would know where to find love,

Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,

But some times I just felt I could give up.

But you came and you changed my whole world now,

I'm somewhere I've never been before.

Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]

It's so unbelievable,

And I don't want to let it go,

Something so beautiful,

Flowing down like a waterfall.

I feel like you've always been,

Forever a part of me.

And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,

Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,

Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,

I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.

I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,

And I've never been here before.

Now I see, what love means.

[Repeat Chorus]

When I think of what I have,

and this chance I nearly lost,

I cant help but break down, and cry.

Oh yeah, break down and cry.

[Repeat Chorus]

Now I see, what love means

Oh my!!!

2009-05-20T11:13:00.002+08:00

Today was supposed the day im back in school....

But in the end here i am again in front of the computer....

Updating my blog... And hear some songs....

(lalalalalalalalalalala) hehe.....

I was waiting fer de day to come back to skul after 4 days at home(bored)....

Arggggghhhhhhhhhh.......

But i guess the reason for my not coming today is reasonable....

I just cannot take it anymore...

I just feel want to give up....

After 15 years suffering... Till now theres no cure to it....

I have no more confidence in living...

Cause i don noe how long im gonna.....

take it...

But people around gives me de

determination to live on....

Especially, my parents....

Despite sending me to a private school which cost a lot of money,

they have to pay for my medical expenses....

Till here then, don wanna talk no more.....

Favourite Song #1

2009-05-17T21:55:00.006+08:00

Song: Unbreak My Heart

Don't leave me in all this pain

Don't leave me out in the rain

Come back and bring back my smile

Come and take these tears away

I need your arms to hold me now

The nights are so unkind

Bring back those nights when I held you beside me

Chorus :

Un-break my heart

Say you'll love me again

Undo this hurt you caused

When you walked out the door

And walked outta my life

Un-cry these tearsI cried so many nights

Un-break my heart

My heart

Take back that sad word good-bye

Bring back the joy to my life

Don't leave me here with these tears

Come and kiss this pain awayI can't forget the day you left

Time is so unkind

And life is so cruel without you here beside me

Chorus:

Don't leave me in all this pain

Don't leave me out in the rain

Bring back the nights when I held you beside me

Chorus:

Un-break my heart

Come back and say you love me

Un-break my heartSweet darlin

'Without you I just can't go on

Can't go on

LaLaLaLa

2009-05-15T17:18:00.005+08:00

YAHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Guess why.......

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Sebab exam dah habes...

But i feel quite worry fer my results.....

Cause i did so bad for my acad... But I kept wondering...

Y de teachers are not that worry...

They kept saying not 2 worry... Coz its de first tyme we do the paper....

How I wish I can easily score my acad subject....

The best thing: Two days breakk are given.. wee~

But then, during the PTM, we are goin to get RB instantly....

Arghh so scared.....

till here bubbye

Guess What....

2009-05-08T17:21:00.005+08:00

Im baaack!!!! But going to be away agayn fer another week....

Due to the examinations....

Felt so relieved its almost the end of week

n tomorrow is weekend...

But I guess i have to werk on in memorising.....

To achieve de best for exams... Aaargh...

I guess that shud be enuf to describe hows the papers for the past 6 days....

Been listening to sleeq's songs..

Began to get updated since the last few months... How time flies...

As most of my time is packed with school schedules, tuition and many more...

Other reasons is bcoz to mengubati/menyejukkan hati yang telah terluka...

Ku SUNGGUH kecewa.. Tidak ku sangka....

Take note of these:

'aku sedar ku juga ada kekuranganku tapi kalau bersifat mementingkan diri

sendiri untuk kebaikan bukan kurang ajar tuu..' -sleeq

Sesungguhnye sedar la saper2 yg pentingkan diri sendiri tu yer...

and please sangat2 think about de consequences

u r going to face..... GOT *** MAD TODAY....

I myself not sure bcoz of what....

is there any curse with 3 letters?? hmm

Another Day

2009-04-17T17:22:00.005+08:00

Hello!!!

After 8 days.. Hmm, aper eh terjadi??

Got to know oral delayed sampai monday nie...

Sat & Sun ader maulud... N i attended both days.... Many things happened there...

I dun wish to tell... But those who were there im sure they noe...

On Sunday was the worst day, i'm frustrated.. Now i noe, if someone noes dat him/her

made a mistake, they'll figure out many kinds of reason.... I hate that...

With us, he/she tell a different reason, n to others also a different...

I dun wanna drag bout it so much...

My Physics test!!!! Luckily I passed...I thot i'm not gonna make it as i leave few ques

blank n sum i just write any ans...

Then,last friday was de 'girl's day'(Sape2 yg tau jek)... So great!!! I enjoyed... I guess dis

kind of day shud be organized again.. LOL....

Dis are the things is still on my mind ryte now...

And i guess ryte now, my headache is getting much better...

~ALHAMDULILLAH~

Last of all, i feel much better without have to think about IT...

~bye-bye~

Yesterday.........

2009-04-08T14:56:00.004+08:00

Everybody shud noe dis..........

' Semalam adalah sejarah dan hari ini adalah realiti'

(kalau salah sorie,but yg penting point ader)

Yesterday??? Wat happened??

Since morning, got such heavy headache.. Which forces me to sleep during lesson.. I FIGHT FOR MY RIGHT dat i shud'nt be sleeping in class..

During recess, asked my fren to go to the toilet wif me..

Wen i went out from the class......, my headache just got better and i felt relieved....

I wondered........................

When i got back to class, a black plastic bag was on my table....

In the class, there are some of my frends in there....

Dalam hati "Sape sey yg kasi? Baru skjp keluar klas"

I asked my bestie... She said she dun noe... By looking at her expression on her face,theres something not right.....

Suddenly everybody(those who in the class) started to force me in opening the present........

Then, from there i noe that it was from them... Noe why? Their acting wasnt satisfying...

Some said it was from a guy.... I felt like laughing.. But i did laughed(in my heart).....

When i opened, inside it was a wallet..

THANK YOU GIRLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Den,my headache suiddenly went on till i get back home... I wasnt concentrating in the class...

When i get back home,i got a high fever...

And end up not schooling for two days(today n tomorrow)............

WEE~~~~~~~~

Birthday,Birthday.....

2009-04-06T16:28:00.003+08:00

And there it is... Today's my birthday... Soo many things happened... From yesterday till today...

First thing(i guess),went eating with my family in advance at banquet near my house... I ate Fish&Chips(my all-time favourite).. Jangan jealous eh korang...

Den dis morning, received 3 different messages from my friends... In wishing me fer my birthday.. To de three of u.. Thanks a lot, u noe who you are... Aku sayang korang n 2gether with de others...

Thats not the only thing happened... Then, 2day it seems that i reached school earlier than before... I never expect that..

When I reached school, many people wished me... I was quite shocked u noe.. But nevermind... Thank You soo much GIRLS for the wish...

And the last thing happen was.....................................................

They gave me a surprise during the last period...

Together they sang a 'Happy Birthday' song...

At first seriously da malu... Y?

Pasal ader budak laki in class.. But luckily tak sumer...

But I enjoyed really much....

Lastly, my guess was right, I guess DIER tak remember yang nari my birthday....

But never mind, I'm very well happy...

LAUGHING

2009-04-01T17:56:00.012+08:00

Da lamer kan aku tk update blog.... Dis cud be bcoz of these few reasons:

1) Busy with my homeworks...

2) Busy revising for exam.........

3) Need some break........(arghh)

4) Stress with studies...................

5) Thinking of my fate..................

6) And also FRIENDS..................

Latest yg boleh ku update is.... My birthday is coming sooooon!!!!!

Feeling happy and sad...

Let me tell about the sad one,

wondering if Hamba ALLAH tu remembers my bfday & im not ready to turn to 15 years old...

Happy pulak....

Hmmmmm............... Fikir la sendiri.....

Bubbye.. Nex tyme will continue.... Love U All......

Soo Sorry.....

2009-02-15T20:32:00.005+08:00

I noe its been a long time since i update my blog.. So, i have tot tell that since it's already new year... I guess I shud start everything a new... N i will try not to say anything about the past... As it may make me feel sad... So,wait for my new look k... Bubbye..........

wee~~~~~

2008-11-05T13:17:00.010+08:00

Fuyyoh!!! da baper ari tk bukak blog...nie gare2 periksa... baru jer tad habes... yessa!!!! at last sey freedom.....

K la, sambong cite ari tuh..... kan ader citer kekek kan...The story goes,

Dari bdk reservoir tu kteorg naek bus 2run eunos... den kene cross de road nk naik bus g bukit panjang... u noe wat happened... after kiteorg cross kiter nmpk bus da nk smpi kat bus stop... nk kejar konfem tk smpt nyer.... my fren nyer idea punyer la baek... dier kate pergi lari 4 the nex bus-stop(naseb tk jauh)... den aper lag kteorg lari lar.... muler2 mcm paise coz dgn aju rayer n kasut tinggi saper nk gi larikan... nk cpt nyer psl sume kene buat kn3..... my fren yg satu ni dier lari burok sey.. den me,takot sey my kasut tinggi kalau pecah-mahal tau... den yg lagi duer tu tk tau plk eh aper jad.... but wat i noe yg satu tu pergi bukak kasut n lari lepas tu complain panas... yg lagi satu tu steady jer, tap tk tau plk eh kalo dlm ati dier tu mcm ane..hua3....

ader part 3 dier.. 2nggu je la eh....

best lar dok!!!

2008-10-15T18:38:00.008+08:00

Walaupon jalan rayer for about 4 people suasane dier tetap best tau last saturday tuh... sape sangker it wud be dat fun... hahah.. org yg tk teringat pon nk jumper... jumper tau... but nie secare kebetulan bkn dengan sengaje... but actually lar kan aku pon tk tau samer ader its accidentally ke tak.. hahaha

Last saturday tu first house my malay teacher to experience something but in the end hua...hua...hua... bez giler lar kat umah dier... mee goreng dier haiz.... sedap giler dok... but dier nyer mee is only for saper2 yang boleh tahan pedas....

Den, kiter gi bukit panjang.... naik bus dr bedok reservoir g eunos den bukit panjang.... turun dpn maner nyer LRT ntah..... pas tu sambong lagik naik bus 2run dier nyer interchange....

haiz pening seyh... but behind all those naik turun.... ader citer kekek dok...

Nnt sambong ar penat lar type.. lagi kat kelas i.t nie..... takot ader org bacer lar kalo lamer2...

K la, bubbye!!! Minal Aidil Walfaizin yer!!!!

Fed-Up!!!!

2008-10-15T18:23:00.015+08:00

Hi, Hello n Whatever!!!

Bingit!!! Bingit!!! Bingit!!!

Dgn org yg perangai macam budak kecik..... tk uker sey.. to me dorng cm irritating.... da banyak kali sey org tuh saket kan hati aku... aku diam jek... skrg aku dah mengamuk... tgk ar aper jadi sekarang.... smkm n narie tk bobal langsong ngn dorg... kalau bole dgn muke2 dorg sekali sey aku tk nk pandang.. saket kan hati sey...............

Dorng pon bknnyer kenal aku lama... abe stepping mcm dorng nie da kenal ngn aku 10 thn yg lalu.. mepek kan.. eeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!! tahap kesabaran aku semakin hilang tau.. jgn maen2 ngan aku... kalau aku mengamok susa nk dipujuk.........

biar padan muker...........

Todays Update

2008-10-06T16:14:00.005+08:00

Title jer dah macam berita ader berlaku bencana seh... hahaha...

aper kabar ume??? amacam duit rayer dah bnyk??? kalau dah banyak bagus lar tuh.... tk macam aku nye.. rasenye mcm mase ckit seyh.. well, kalau psl duit confirm tk pea cukop.... kan3....

Another thing, pasal HYM... i juz dunnoe wat i shud do wif my feelings... makin lamer main makan hati sey... tnye my friend, dier kater juz blang dier my feelings.. den i said kalau aku blang, den dier tk uke aku.. kan bwt paise sendiri.. btl tk? abe my friend kater blang tyme cuti skola to avoid paise.. nthla... mixed up sey everything..

Biarku pikir kan exam dulu.. bnde lain le ckp nnt...

Camat Ari Rayer

2008-10-04T19:52:00.009+08:00

hua....hua...hua... da lamer btol aku tk anu blog... smpi rayer lah sey... hmm.. tkpe2...

Bes sey rayer tahun nie.. dapat bnyk fulus tau... hehe...

Tap yg boring nyer, ader exam plk... den bsk, sunday... sedare mare plk nk dtg... haiz..

Nding2 uma mcm bkin open house... den i still thinking about jalan2 rayer ngan kawan2.. bile nk game pon tk tau... haiz.. bt never mind, nnt leh discuss...

K lah, Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin yer... Maafkanlah aku kaalau aku bwt korang mara giler ker saket ka hati ker kayzzz............

BYE n TATKE CARE!!!!

Hmm...

2008-09-18T14:39:00.009+08:00

Hello!!! ku kembali disini untuk meneruskan perJUANGAN membt blog hehe..... Dah lamer sey tk on computer kat umah... Balik skool jer, msk bilik pas tu bam atas katil... haiz... niat nk on comp ader tap tk leh angkat sey nk bngn... Nie pon bt blog kat skool.. Teacher pon nmpk mcm tk mrh jer... biarlah ku teruskan... Mendak sey narie... terpakser jadi giler nk hiburkan hati... hahahaha...
nari, so far tk der story lar... cumer perbtn yg giler2 jer lah... mcm main piat2 telinga.. hahaha bt im not dat evil eh... den bell skola merepek habes... ramai ckp bunyik tu mcm dkt airport lar n whatsoever ar.... den, skrg nie, bobal psl syarif-sleeq..A hopefully spelling namer dier btol lah... ader org kater dier tk hansem.. i think mater dorg tuh rosak sey.. den ade sokong aku yg dier hansem pas tu dier tambah.. dier ckp syarif kerek... OMG!!!! nie case tk tau nk bersyukor... mcm phm plk aku bobal... jgn marah eh fren ade psl citer korg kat cni... hehehe.....
Sampai cni kays.... BUBBYE n Selamat berpose....

Rindu nyer!!!!

2008-09-11T17:03:00.008+08:00

Borynq plk.... nk continue lag lar bt blog....
hmm.. da dpt idea da nk bobal psl aper...
telling de truth bler msk zaman remajer nie kan, challenging abes... how i wish dpt turn back tyme... bler da gni, hidop kiter da lain sey...
dantarenyer dat i can say, bler besfriend lain class... kiter disini maseh nk kwn rapat dgn dier bt wat i feel is that we are drifting apart sbb dier as though da der pengganti...
den, kter jarang nk bertegur sape... n kadang2 blh jad musuh sey.. teringt kes psl teachers day... haiz..bt its over... yg tau tu phm2 je lar...
den ader plk yg berubah dgn serta-merta... patutla pepatah nie sentiaser disbt-sbt... 'People change as time goes by' kalau tk slh lar...
i think it s not called life if it is as not challenging as dis... bt, masalahnyer aku nie maseh blm bersedia nk menghadapi sumer nie... i need some1... some1 who can lead me in my life... tap saper yg blh bt cam tu.. nnt org kater kter tk independent lar... haiz.... till here... kalau ader idea.. ill write again....

Back Again....

2008-09-11T16:46:00.010+08:00

Hmm, HELLO, da lamer tk update.. bz lar.. tk tau plk nk ckp psl aper nari da penat sangat n many things happened dis few days....
Bnyk suka dan duka.. muler2 ok lps tu k.o..hmm, ini lar yg dnamekan hidop..tk dpt lari darinyer...
yg duka nyer... im still bingit ngan kwn2ku nyer perangai.. dunnoe y lar perangai dier cam tu.. sooooooooo the childish...... tuhan sajerlah yang tau... den, i fel so the lonely seyh kat klas.. as though aku nie dipinggirkan..... ntah la tkk tau mcm ane lag nk describe.....
yg suker nyer... tad bongkar file document kat comp skola... me ngan lag 4 org... den, ader gamba mase IMG lar, jubilee.. bnyk lagi lar.... most of de pic gamba2 lelaki.. tk le angkat sey tgk dorg posing... flip punyer flip... muker dier plk ader... tk terkater aku.. hes sooo cute sey maser dulu2.. skrg maybe handsome??? hahah... aku da mepek.... nk ckp bnyk2 pon tk le coz dier pon sebok2 nk tgk gamba2 yg kter tgk... me ngan my fren kater jer pose tap bnyk so-called mengutuk gamba tuh.. tap pdhl sesungguhnyer ku mengatakan fakta bkn mungutuk... yg bdk laki lar nie melbh-lbh sey kater kter mengutuk... hmm tkpe2....
K la, smpi cni jer, sedare ku jap agik nk dtg... bye!!! Selamat Berpuaser...

lovely day

2008-09-04T14:37:00.011+08:00

Hello... smlm tk smpt plk nk update blog...nari nk ckp psl smlm psl kawan laen ari boleh...
smlm my mum ajak g geylang... one of my opportunites to see HYM sey.. tp my mum ajak plk naek bus.. smlm ingt nk g topup minyak wangi jer kat JJC punyer sblh... but den dh jad kes merayap satu geylang... jalan2 kat bazar senang ckp... tk bnyk bnder sey.. nk beli baju pon mahal... smpi $160 but still maseh dlm consideration lar nk beli ke tk.. haiz... den 4 buka,my mum plk ingt nk beli mini murtabak.. bazr dkt pasar biru tk der.. patah balik joo chiat... cari punyer carik pon ttp tk der... boring sey.. da la puaser2 kene make a turn lag.. mam nk buker jer sey dat tyme... den my mum ckp beli je lar aper kau nk mkn.. pk nyer pk... hmm burger ramly lar aper lag... pegi kat satu kedai mule2 tk prasan saper tukang goreng burger tu sumer bt den bler tgk btol2.... jengjenjeng.... Zureen lar sey..spelling tk tau la eh btol ke tk... bt i noe its him.. cute lar sey ngn baju putih.. adik dier pon lawa... haiz... oops berangan skjp plk tad...hehe... yg penting it was a great honour to meet him.. kesian kan jad tukang masak kat situ... k la, nnt le tulis lag perut saket sey.. bkn psl lapar n bkn psl pompan nyer hal... tk tau la knp... slamat berpuaser....

Stress nyer!!!!!!!!!

2008-09-02T13:20:00.013+08:00

Hari nie citer psl kwn aku.... Kawan2 ku yg slalu dgn ku kini dah laen klas... aku masok klas lain tk biaser sey,coz my friends arent wif me.. yg tu tk per,satu klas lag dgn dier... haiz...
Bt now bkn psl diernyer story.. aku ade kenal few bdk ar... aku raser dorg nie irritaing sey... tk mcm kawan2 aku... haiz.... tk terkater sey dier nyer irritating... dorg pon aku rase tk matured habes sey.. bab tu mm bdk kecik... tap tkpe i have to accept these.. myb bcoz aku nie baru knl dorg but knl dgn kwn2 aku yg laen lbh lamer... jadi aku tk biaser bergaul ngan dorg...
N aku tau mesti ader backstabber nyer... blakang aku.. tap tkpe aku pon sekaki.. moga tuhan beri aku taufik dan hidayah utk hadapi sumer nie... haiz....... bt actually dat is consider luahkan hati perr... bkn mengumpat.....
laen kali aku citer psl kawan2 aku yg lain... kays.... bye.... Selamat Berpuase.. no half2 day eh...

bt pertama kali...

2008-08-30T17:15:00.015+08:00

Hi everyone nie first tyme tau bt blog... tu pon psl nk luahkan hati bab i noe no one can ever hear me screaming inside me.. n im sure kwn2 aku pon tk akn faham my situation.. k la, smpi cni dulu.. nnt2 blh bukak citer... Byezz!!!!

My.Life.Story.

NEW BLOGSKIN....

Hows Life...?

Im Freaked Out...

New Life

New

My.Life.Story.

My Life

Im Back & Will Be Gone...

New Me

Updating!

Months after months....

A New Year

Hmm....

Very Moody

Here Is Something About Month of April

Todaaaaayyy... hehe

Stories... Stories...

Quotes

Here's SleeQ

"I wanna say THANKS coz u made my day a WHOLE LOT better...."

New Ones

Hie...

The Last Part

Part 4

Part 3

Part 2

Something to Share (Part 1)

More videos

At last

Another One!!!!

Another Song

Song For You

Expressing it

Today's Feelings

June Holidays

Apologies from me

Alhamdulillah

Balik from REBUTIA.......

Lagu Die Best!!!

The Result Is Out!!!

Lupakan saja....

Favourite Song #3

*LUAHANKU*

Favourite Song #2

Oh my!!!

Favourite Song #1

LaLaLaLa

Guess What....

Another Day

Yesterday.........

Birthday,Birthday.....

*LAUGHING*

Soo Sorry.....

wee~~~~~

best lar dok!!!

Fed-Up!!!!

Todays Update

Camat Ari Rayer

Hmm...

Rindu nyer!!!!

Back Again....

lovely day

Stress nyer!!!!!!!!!

bt pertama kali...

LUAHANKU

LAUGHING